Confused and upset

You know what that means confused and upset right?
Yep that's what I feel right now!
I don't understand why did I get it, but I exactly know since when.
YESTERDAY!

And last night till this time I don't know what will I do.
I wanna share some song lyrics that seems like what I feel

I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way
I'm leaving today 'cause I've gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

Cinta biar saja ada
Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
Bagai manapun hidup
Memang hanya cerita
Cerita tentang meninggalkan dengan ditinggalkan

If I could escape and recreate a place that's my own world

And I could be your favorite girl forever, perfectly together

Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet

I know I've been a real bad girl

I didn't mean for you to get hurt whatsoever

We can make it better

Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?

What am I to do with my life
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

Dan memang hidupku hampa tanpamu
Samun lebih baik aku sendiri
Simpan saja rasa di hatimu
Sudah lupakan

Hasratku tak lagi untuk saling mencinta

Sudah sampai disini

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

kini maafkanlah aku
bila ku menjadi bisu
kepada dirimu

bukan santunku terbungkam
hanya hatiku berbatas
tuk mengerti kamu
maafkanlah aku

walau kumasih mencintaimu
kuharus meninggalkanmu
kuharus melupakanmu
meski hatiku menyayangimu
nurani membutuhkanmu
kuharus merelakanmu

Yap at least that's what I feel right now!

Aaaahhh I don't know what will I do? Wanna give me an advice? Briiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggg
Because what I really want is a boy like the boy in that song, who can carry me serenity and support me in order not to feel more depressed. You know what? Sometime I'm feeling and thinking about my freedom. I wanna feel it on my way. I do wont to feel on hold. I wont! Why did somebody never understand me? They take all of the blame to me. I want to be understandable, not only to understand others.

Thanks